Saturday, July 07, 2007

Off the Mini Mommy Ledge

Thank you for talking me down, people. And making me laugh. Of course he is fine - he's better than that. Part of my trouble here is mental: he kept reaching milestones ahead of schedule in the early days, so I sort of have it in my head that he is a highly advanced child. Which he of course is. ;) But his tummy muscles don't know that.

Interestingly, after I wrote this post, he starting rolling over like gangbusters. He's done it half a dozen times since then. Like he is saying "See Mommy? No big deal."

He did that in the womb, too. Every time I would convince myself that he had stopped moving, he would start doing the Cha Cha Cha. I thanked him a lot during those days.

All of this is really great for me. But I am (only slightly) concerned about this constant reassurance that he is providing. What if it turns into the dysfunctional cycle of co-dependency that I share with my own mother? I do want him to be like me in other ways, but it would be great if he didn't require the mother-related therapy that I do. Or maybe I should just start a savings account right now. How many 6 month olds have a piggy bank in their rooms labeled "Future Therapy Bills"?

3 comments:

Lori said...

I have been out of town, but I am catching up and am glad to hear you are off the ledge!! :)

I think the therapy bills you should save for are your own. My kids seem no worse for wear by any of my freak outs, it's me!!!

kate said...

lol i missed your mini-freakout! So i am glad you are feeling better. And yes, he sounds perfectly normal to me too...

kate said...

Oh, i want to say this generally about developmental milestones....Alexander rolled over late, never crawled, didn't talk much until he was 3, and was quite a late reader. All of these things caused me a *great* deal of concern at the time. Like, i was seriously mental, and it was a complete waste of effort for me to worry so much. So now i say, if the doctor isn't worried then i won't worry either!