Friday, June 15, 2007

Okay, I admit it (again)

I hear of other people having their first babies and I want to cry. My heart races and my stomach drops.

This is old, people, really old. Can't 2.5 years of this be enough? Why do I relive my trauma every time some high school friend's boyfriend's sister has a baby?


niobe said...

I know how you feel. I wish I didn't, but I do.

Julian's Mom said...

I also know how you feel, and am similarly upset and ashamed by my feelings about friends who are now getting pregnant with their second babies. I feel it puts an uncomfortable distance between us and emphasizes our differences. I can say with certainty that we will not be having another child and I can't help feeling the unfairness that they will have two and no one will know or remember or care that I have two, too, it's just that one is invisible.