Wednesday, May 07, 2008

Fits and Starts

I don't know why, but I have been feeling quite sorry for myself the last few days. It is because C. isn't here, but he wasn't here last week, either. I don't know why this week is so trying.

On the other hand, it feels like spring might be here to stay. An hour with BB in the sunlight, under a huge, blue sky, is perfection - like I am watching a made for TV movie.

2 comments:

Monica said...

I feel that too. Sometimes is just hits me all over again. Some days I'll be doing just fine and then I'll think about him and then lose it. You could be having more rough days because Mother's Day is coming up, or it could be the weather. I always associate Jimmy with summer because he was born in Aug.

delphi said...

Thanks, Monica - I hadn't considered the onset of Mother's Day. I truly believe in the cyclical nature of our lives and that first Mother's Day was terrible. Perhaps the melancholy I am feeling now is a trickle down from 3 years ago...