Monday, October 15, 2007

Words for October 15th

What follows is the reflection that I shared on Saturday. I thank Julian's Mom for the Robert Frost poem. I will take down this post soon, so that no one who heard me speak will be able to link me to this blog.



[Email me for the text]

10 comments:

Cheek said...

This is a beautifully written post and a lovely tribute to C and your ongoing, evolving feelings for him. Simply lovely.

Angela said...

This is beautiful.

Aussie Kate said...

Thank you for sharing your beautiful words with us. I cried as I read them, and felt very priveliged for the opportunity to read them. I am sure that those that heard you speak were very moved also. Your love for darling little C lives on eternally.....

Ruby said...

Thank you for sharing this beautiful tribute to your baby. I appreciate you giving me/us the privilege of being able to read this even if temporarily.

Julia said...

Beautiful

kate said...

This is beautiful....

Rosepetal said...

This just beautiful. I hope your words helped others to understand better too.

Julian's Mom said...

I am so moved by your words, and like others, in awe of your ability to speak them publicly-- something I don't think I'd ever be able to do. I thank you so much for lighting a candle for Julian. Your friendship means so much to me, despite the fact that we're far apart and don't talk often enough. I miss you.

We chose not to go to our hospital's annual baby memorial this year (come to think of it, we didn't go last year either), not because we don't still think of Julian every day, not because we don't love and miss him, but because I think we're afraid of what would happen if we went. During the first year after he died, we were immersed in grief, connected with others with similar experiences, cried every day, and learning all the different ways we could cope with the tremendous tragedy. Nearly three years later, I do not cry every day, and can speak Julian's name without breaking down, but I still feel like someone who is recovering from post traumatic stress disorder. I still avoid a lot of people and situations for fear of breaking down uncontrollably. As you said, it never goes away, and it shouldn't. Our first babies made us mothers, and mothers never forget.

Lori said...

This is so beautiful. I am so amazed you were able to speak these words, but I am so glad you did.

Thank you for sharing this.

pipsylou said...

HOw have I been missing your posts? I HATE Google Reader. It won't let me add new people, and it doesn't keep me current with the ones I have! Moving to Bloglines...

can you mail me the text? pipsersmom@gmail.com