When I saw this piece on CTV News*net the other day, I knew I should turn the station before I knew the details. Because a story where a shrimp-boat captain delivers a breach baby at sea with improvised equipment and manages to keep the baby alive by performing CPR while following instructions in a first aid guide is really not something that I need to hear.* It makes me feel like a failure for not being able to bring C. safely into the world (despite much better circumstances) and a jerk for feeling so jealous, bitter, and spiteful.
And I don't need extra reasons to feel those emotions.
*how do you like that run-0n sentence?
In January of 2005, my son C. died. Then he was born. These are the 8 million pieces of my life, as I pick them up,one by one.
And now, featuring the addition of our second beautiful child, BB and his lovely sister E.
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3 comments:
I felt the same when I read about a baby born prematurely (at 7 months) onboard a holiday flight and how the crew kept the baby alive until they landed and now everything's fine.
I live near this occurrence and it has been on the news everyday! Uggh... What irks me is that why was this woman so blessed to have everything turn out good despite being on a shrimp boat in her third trimester!?! I do everything right, eschew even caffeine, and I lose my beloved baby. I'll never get over that. Sure, it may soften, but I'll always have a little grudge to those who seem to be so blessed in spite of their behavior. BTW, where are the pics you write about in the next post?
Well, you are not alone. I felt the same jealousy and bitterness. And hated myself for it. *sigh*
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